Saturday!

This is the first time in as long as I can remember being off work on Saturdays.  I would have the occasional weekend off for different reasons but now it is on the schedule!  So stoked!  So of course I wanted to wake up and fix the family breakfast.  One daughter loves sausage, the other one not so much.  We also had eggs and biscuits!  I'm so proud of myself though, I had 2 egglands best eggs scrambled and 2 pieces of 35 calorie bread.  I win!

Still not sure about the low Carb stuff.  Having the heart disease that I do, I'm not comfortable eating a ton of cholesterol every day.  I also get burnt out on chicken and tuna.

So for a while, I'm going to just keep doing my thing..tracking and staying in calories.  I know I have the willpower to stop the binging. 
Taking things day by day and keep trying to move in the right direction.

Low carb vs binge eating

So I decided that I'm going to do low Carb to try to control my binging.  I'm still going to eat a little fruit, but stay away from bread and other starches.

A person on my Facebook page was curious why I'm changing things.

It is not all sunshine and rainbows... I struggle every single day.  I wish it was easy just to lose weight and not have to worry about it anymore, but many of you know it is a life long battle.  

I'm anxious to see if this tweek in my diet will help me. 

Cross fingers (and toes)

Binge eating

I have came to the conclusion that I am in fact a binge eater.  I'm not really sure if this is something that I have started this year or if I have always been.  See before, I ate constantly, ate when I was not hungry, large amounts of food in a short period of time and I thought this was normal.  I know, my mind  was not in a good place as far as food goes.

Symptoms of binge eating..

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/binge-eating-disorder/DS00608/DSECTION=symptoms

Yesterday after I ate a large bowl of 4 day old chili, 4 spoons of peanut butter, 6 pieces of cheese bread, and a blueberry  bar within about 30 minutes without even thinking about it I knew I had a big problem.

When did I lose my mental grasp on my weight loss?  I think it was when I had my stents put in this past Spring.  At the time I felt like I was in the best shape of my life, and had a 100% blockage.  How does a 30 year old that had just lost 150 pounds handle news like that?  Not well my friends.  Since then I have yo-yo'd.   Not something I have intentions if doing, it just happens.  How do I get my control back?  How do I get my groove back?  I know how to lose weight, but I am holding myself back.  I am 100 percent open to suggestions.

Greetings!

Word of warning...

I am not a good blogger.  I have tried and tried to write moving pieces before on Sparkpeople and is just not me.  I sound to fake.  This is me, just trying to be me.

I'm trying to decide where to go with this blog..do I make it just about my weight loss journey, or about my life in general?  I don't have to decide right now.

My starting weight in January 2011 was 357 lbs.  My current weight is 216 lbs. 

Time for pics!

Before pic 357
After pic 216

That's all for right now.. more later!